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Working for the Weekend
It’s more than a catchy song title to me
Text and photo by Tom Hintz
Posted – 6-18-2015
It worked well in a song title and lots of folks use it to describe and/or justify their feelings about their jobs. However, now saddled with the limitations of Alzheimer's along with having one car in the family “working for the weekend” has become a mantra of sorts for me. Much of the work I do on my sites during the week directly relates to what I did last weekend or what I want to accomplish this coming weekend. But there is a difference between the first part of the week and the last part.
Most weeks by Wednesday my attitude is slowing down as I try to deal with the video I forgot to shoot or information I forgot to add to content done earlier in the week. Still, I can fix most of this, it just takes more time than it used to. I didn’t worry about the extra time earlier in the Alzheimer's journey telling myself that even wasted effort was still exercise for my brain and that is what all of this is about at its core.
It is also around the middle of the week when frustration sets in over wasting some of the time I have left on fixing memory-based errors from earlier in the week. That frustration is magnified by knowing that a steady flow of content is what will grow my sites and the financial impact they can have on my family when I am no longer able to work or gone altogether. Not having a sufficient budget complicates this because there is precious little of any consequence that can be done for free, even on the Internet.
So, “working for the weekend” has more meaning to me than it might to most people. It creates the emotional rollercoaster I ride each week. The scary part is that the peaks and valleys of that ride are getting more pronounced. I love the highs of flying and being at the flying field but the valleys of frustration between those trips are increasingly hard to deal with. I don’t know what to blame that on except the progression of Alzheimer's. I feel that I am working my brain harder than most people in my situation but that is getting harder and harder to do in part because of the lack of time and budget to do it with.
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